| Location | Doncaster |
| Age | 2 days |
| Cause of Death | Genetic Condition |
| Date of Birth | 21/03/2007 |
| Date of Death | 23/03/2007 |
| Visitors | 6,998 since 21/06/2007 |
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Our perfect little boy Lincoln Christopher French was born on Wednesday the 21st of march at 9.33am,at Doncaster royal infirmary. Weighing 6lb 9oz he was 51cm long and just how I had dreamed him. He wasn’t due to be born till the 15th of April but even though he was early all the doctors and nurses said he would be fine but put him in a incubator and moved him to the neonatal to make sure. As his chest was a little wheezy and they thought he my have fluid in his lungs.
They did an x-rays to check his lungs for fluid but they were fine, they did blood tests on him every few hours and his blood gasses were slowly getting better. Then at 7pm they woke me to tell me they had put him on c-pap to help with his breathing. So I went up to the neonatal and held his hand and stayed with him till 2am then went back to my room.
At 4am they came to wake me to let me know they had put him on a ventilator, So I went back up to the neonatal and stayed with him till his dad came at 8am.
We talked to the doctors and they still thought he would be fine, just that it was respiratory distress because he was premature.
Then that afternoon they sent off blood tests and told us they wouldn’t be back for 24 hours, within a few hours the results were back and at about half past 9 we were taken into a side room. They told us that Lincoln's body wasn't getting rid of his ammonia and it was building up in his body. Ammonia is neurotoxin which normally passes through your body safely but because Lincoln
was unable to get rid of it, It had travelled to his central nervous system through his blood and had caused severe brain damage, putting him in a coma and unable to breath for himself. What should have come
back as a normal ammonia count of around 40 came back at over 3000,
This is why the results had come back so fast.
They told us they had been in touch with a specialist at Sheffield hospital and wanted to try and transfer him there to try and wash the ammonia out of his blood using dialysis. Lincoln's Dad asked if he could talk to the specialist on the phone which they agreed to, The specialist told Howard that the highest levels he had treated was an ammonia count of 1300 and that child was left severely disabled. Howard asked what Lincoln’s chances were and if he thought it was the right thing to do. He told Howard that from the sounds of Lincoln's condition too much damage had already been done and even if they could get the ammonia out of his system he didn’t think Lincoln would ever wake up or breath on his own again. He also said that there would be no way to stop the ammonia building back up because something wasn't working how it should,
so it would just keep happening till his body gave up.
We then made the hardest decision of our lives and one no parent should ever have to make, We made the choice to let our son go.
Still in shock we had to phone our family to tell them about his condition and that they needed to come and say good bye to there grandchild and nephew. We had to wait for howard's dad to drive up from Luton. We didn't leave Lincoln side for the hours while we waited, he was christened, then finally every one was there and it was time to let them say there goodbyes.
At 8am on Friday the 23rd he was taken off the ventilator and we wrapped him in his blanket. I remember holding him in my arms as we walked to our room on the neonatal, I could barely
see where I was going for the tears in my eyes. I remember Howard’s hand on my waist holding
me up as we walked past the reception, two women behind the reception looked at me holding our little boy with a look that i would see on every face from then on when I would tell people about my little boy. I felt like my legs were about to give way with every step I took and my heart physically hurting from willing him to wake up but knowing he wasn't going too.
It felt as though we were moving in slow motion but every thing else was going by so fast I
could hardly catch my breath.
We got to our room and we just sat there holding him telling him how much we loved him, how brave and perfect he was and singing to him. Every now and then the doctor would come in to check to see if his heart beat had gone and every time he’s heart beat was still there.
I held him and just prayed and prayed for him to breath and prove them wrong but he never did, at 8.30 the doctor came in a final time to listened for his heart beat but it was gone. Our little boy had passed away in our arms knowing he was loved.
We bathed him and dressed him in his tiny vest, sleep suit and hat, Knowing this would be the first only time we would get to do this for him was heart breaking. Then we put him in a moses basket with his giraffe and blanket, too look at him with his soft rosy cheeks and peaceful face you could have sworn he was just sleeping. There was just something so unreal about it. We never saw him
open he's eyes and only heard him cry once when he was first born and now we had to say goodbye.
Not even 48 hours after seeing out perfect boy for the first time he was gone and part of us would always be missing.
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He was laid to rest at rose hill children’s garden in his little blue coffin, his funeral service was done by reverend Clive that had christened him at the hospital before he passed away. Howard pick Damien Rice - Older Chests to be played as we went into the chapel at rose hill, Howard spoke about our beautiful little boy and the short time we had with him and the memories he gave us even in such a short time. I pick Sarah McGlaughlin - Angels, to be played as we left the chapel to walked round to the grave side. We asked every one just to bring a single red rose and we laid them all together at the side of his grave.
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There isn’t a day that I don't think about him, I miss him more every day and would give the world just to see him and hold him one more time. I have to believe this happened for a reason, I just wish I new what it was. I believe that my little angel Lincoln was just too perfect for this world and for the time i had him my life, like him...my life was perfect.
We have seen specialists at Doncaster and Sheffield, they have told us that they still don't know what caused Lincoln's condition and we probably never will. They believe it to be rare or unknown metabolic condition as every test they have done has come back negative. They believe its most likely genetic and if so there is a 1 in 4 (25%) chance that it may happen again with any child me and Howard have together but I know Lincoln will be up there watching over his little brother or sister and keeping them safe.
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We were sent a beautiful little girl named Summer-Rose on the 25th of April 2008 and after a weeks she was given the all clear. She is the double of her big brother when she sleeps. I'm sure she was sent to me by Lincoln to give me strength and help me go on, so I thank him everyday for her.
25/1/2012.
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★ Night Time ★
A Shooting star
Fly's through the sky,
The Moon is Beaming,
Way up High.
The Darkness
Falls all around,
The Night Sky
appears without a sound
The stars begin Twinkling
out some Light,
and our Angels are
Keeping us in there Sight
By Lisa Heritage
✗... Ô¼Æ Æ”Ð„ ♥ ƛԼƜƛƳS ...✗.... elaine & Baby Ryan xo
Friday 20th January 2012....
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...Gone but not Forgotten
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Gone but not forgotten
Four words i always hear
When looking at your photograph
Through eyes now full of tears
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Gone but not forgotten
Its you i want to see
I still feel the special bond
When you love and comfort me
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Gone but not forgotten
Hearts torn at the seams
Making me feel whole again
When i see you in my dreams
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Gone but not forgotten
ill never let you go
My life will never be the same
For i love and miss you so
copyright© Vicky Deaville 28/12/2011
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Friday Night.....
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SOME NIGHTS IT IS SO DIFFICULT TO EVEN SLEEP
MY EYES ARE SO SORE FROM THE TEARS I WEEP
I LOOK TO THE SKIES I SEARCH FOR A STAR
EACH ONE LOOKS SO CLOSE YET IT IS SO FAR
...♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★
THE LIGHT THAT SHINES HELPS TO BRING COMFORT MY WAY
I STARE AT THE STAR UNTIL NIGHT TURNS TO DAY
TEARS UPON MY PILLOW THAT NEVER SEEM TO DRY
HAS I WATCH MY STAR FADE FROM THE SKY
...♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★
A NEW DAWN BREAKS I WONDER WHY I AM STILL HERE
ANOTHER DAY ANOTHER WEEK ANOTHER YEAR
TIME HAS PASSED I NEVER EVEN NOTICED IT GO BY
I TURN MY HEAD TOWARDS MY PILLOW ONCE AGAIN I CRY
...♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★♥ ✲ ★
A MILLION TIMES I HAVE CALLED OUT YOUR NAME
MY HEART IS FULL OF SORROW SO FULL OF PAIN
JUST WAITING FOR THE TIME THAT I SHALL SEE YOU ONCE MORE
WHEN I HEAR YOUR VOICE CALLING ME TO HEAVENS DOOR.....
copyright© Rosalind Roberts 25/10/2011
Love Always elaine & Baby Ryan xo
17/1/2012.
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Love Always elaine & Baby Ryan xo
17/1/2012.
LINCOLN,
Sending Love This Morning...
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12/1/2012.
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All Our Love elaine & Baby Ryan xo
8/1/2012.
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THE BROKEN HEART FEELS PAIN
I have always thought that a Broken heart
Was just a figure of speech
That the heart doesn’t truly break,
It’s just the words we speak.
And then my loved one went away,
Up to the Heaven’s to stay
I found that heartbreak was no lie,
My heart truly felt the pain!
(c)2011 vickihansen.wordpress.com/
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SOME NIGHTS.......
SOME NIGHTS IT IS SO DIFFICULT TO EVEN SLEEP
MY EYES ARE SO SORE FROM THE TEARS I WEEP
I LOOK TO THE SKIES I SEARCH FOR A STAR
EACH ONE LOOKS SO CLOSE YET IT IS SO FAR
THE LIGHT THAT SHINES HELPS TO BRING COMFORT MY WAY
I STARE AT THE STAR UNTIL NIGHT TURNS TO DAY
TEARS UPON MY PILLOW THAT NEVER SEEM TO DRY
HAS I WATCH MY STAR FADE FROM THE SKY
A NEW DAWN BREAKS I WONDER WHY I AM STILL HERE
ANOTHER DAY ANOTHER WEEK ANOTHER YEAR
TIME HAS PASSED I NEVER EVEN NOTICED IT GO BY
I TURN MY HEAD TOWARDS MY PILLOW ONCE AGAIN I CRY
A MILLION TIMES I HAVE CALLED OUT YOUR NAME
MY HEART IS FULL OF SORROW SO FULL OF PAIN
JUST WAITING FOR THE TIME THAT I SHALL SEE YOU ONCE MORE
WHEN I HEAR YOUR VOICE CALLING ME TO HEAVENS DOOR.....
copyright� Rosalind Roberts 25/10/2011
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All Our Love Always elaine & Baby Ryan xo
29/12/2011.
♥ MORNING ♥
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Christmas is a Special Time
A time we Celebrate,
When everyone gets together
and the children just cant wait
so many excited feelings
and family bond together
Singinging voices everywhere
some people want it to last forever.
But for some it brings them sadness
followed by thoughts of woe and despair
for the loss of their Loved ones
can be more than they can bare.
Christmas can be a reminder,
for those who lossed someone they Love
Especially the Angel on top of the Tree,
It's when their Angel was Taken Above.
♥ By Lisa Heritage ♥
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♥ Why Did You Go ♥
I have a moment nearly every day,
It doesnt stop hurting i have to say,
now your gone my thoughts of you
are of all those things we had to do.
those moments we should have shared together,
and the memories that should have lasted forever
Instead all i get are these tears of woe
and wondering why you had to go!
♥~* By Lisa Heritage ♥~*
♥ Thoughts and Love Always elaine and Baby Ryan xo
Christmas Time Soon.
Hey little man, Hope your ready for Christmas.
Me, Auntie Claire and Summer took your christmas flower's up to rose hill today, Hope you like them.
I miss you so much, even more than i the possible at Christmas time. Always feeling wrong without you, like someone is missing, I know your watching over us but its not the same as being able to see you everyday and give you a big hug and see your face on Christmas morning.
Have a wonderful Christmas with the angels Lincoln and come see us. I love you with all my heart. Sweet dreams baby. x
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Love elaine & Baby Ryan xo
Thinking Of You Wee Man
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